15 Years

Hi, I have been very frustrated with you over the payment of support. I think I have been very punctual overall and at one point I was even paying a month in advance. You telling me you are going to go to child support, like I'm some deadbeat Dad, really angered me. Last night I thought, 15 years left, and I don't have to deal with you anymore-EVER. And then that didn't matter, at all, I thought "my God, it's been three years, Monster is going to be four in less than six months," and I got very sad because time is going by so fast. Soon he will be starting school, he will make friends, and soon he will be a teenager, and then who knows. If he is like me, he will try to be very independent as early as possible, and might leave us to start his life as soon as possible. It just made me sad, I want him to grow up, but I also want it to slow down just a little, so I can have a little more time with him. More time to play cars, mechanic, fix the floor with his tools, orange pew pews, read books, count, sing, dance, hide and seek, I just want a little more time so he can play with Daddy.